There has got to be a way to get this right..

I’ve been trying pretty hard to be perfect. 

perhaps perfect is too strong a word; 

I should say: mindful, considerate, pleasing, call it what you will, it's pretty embarrassing.

Don’t text too much because it comes across as desperate.. 

No  ichat every time they log on for the same reason. 

Remember not to ask when we’re seeing each other next because nonchalance is key, right? 

Don’t sound too eager when planning something in the future, remember, gotta remain "cool". 

When you’re out with other people, don’t demand his attention, 

you've got your own thing going on, you don't want to seem weak, needy, intense.

all these crazy rules i’ve made up in my head so you don’t see past this facade. 

who am I kidding? i’m not nonchalant...

I over-think everything. i can be intense, and i’m definitely jealous at times. 

but in essence, at the crux of all this overanalysation; 

you make me nervous, and I am insanely head over heels for you.

 i just wish you knew how far away i am from "cool".

 :) ha ha.

-the end.