Up all night.

Long night, had more than demons to fight... Sometimes I guess MS likes to remind me that though I may live life without it, I have not shaken it. It is still very much there, biting at my heels every step I take.  A permanent passenger of sorts, one that I do truly embrace but frequently wish away.  Last night MS and I had a fight... or maybe the drugs and I had a fight.. it's hard to tell these days.. fevers, aches, the most painful spasms I've ever felt..  To be honest I woke up scared. I never know what may happen next, or if today might be the day I have a relapse... but it made me realize one thing again this morning that I maybe have lost grasp of and that is this:  Every moment in my life is so precious to me, every laugh, every smile, every converstation, every walk with my dog and call from a friend... something is different now than it was before MS... and I think it's that I've learned that somethings are more important than other things... and no matter what tomorrow might bring.. we need to smile today.

xo-g