all at once, it was as if the dark cloud that had shrouded my mind from seeing life had been lifted.
just like that, one single conversation, allowed me to release the things which i held so tightly.  and for a  moment, everything made sense it was as if the weight was slowly lifting from my shoulders. i wanted to rejoice...  However, faithfully, the sadness that lives buried deep within is relentless in it's hold. I will diligently un pile the stack, one block at a time.  Part of me is so scared to release all the heaviness that lives inside me, for what would I be without it?  An empty shell?  What would fill the empty space?  Happiness?  Fullfillment?  or would another ghost move in and set-up camp?  It's funny how we can convince ourselves of who we are, we can gloss over and think that we are someone else, without really examining our true nature.  What started from the time I was a seed, I carry with me, whether I choose to see it or not.  Well, my eyes are open now... I'll see myself for what I am, and I will work hard to change the bits that do me harm.