not much of a rainbow.

I'm just an ordinary girl... 

most times I feel less than ordinary..

I'm terrified of feeling sad therefore I don't know how to feel completely happy

I would give you everything I had if i knew you would protect it

i like to go for walks and read books because it's the only way my mind gets quiet

I'm tired of loving things so much that it breaks my heart

sometimes I see things that I think are so beautiful it feels like I can't breathe

I am not brave enough to say how I really feel about the things that matter most

I pay attention to almost everything even if it looks like I don't

I daydream about worlds where all I know is happiness and am never blue

I am pretty damn broken and bruised

I want to find words that make everything different. 

I want to be something other than ordinary, 

I'm just not sure how to get there...