It's just how i look in the light

Something has gone terribly awry here.  Like time has passed at warped speed and before I knew it I was standing here with a hole in my heart and no place to call home.  Feeling like an outcast on the inside, looking like I must belong from the outside.  Somewhere between time and space I took a crooked turn, and my crooked smile got lost along the way. Somewhere I went horribly wrong, somewhere I made a really bad decision.  What I want and what I thought I wanted didn't match up and now I can't set it right.  Not a day goes by that I don't think about the time that i turned left when you turned right.  I can feel myself spiraling.. down, down, down she goes... into the pits of my stomach, the marrow of my bones... I must deserve this loneliness.. for what I've done.  Will i ever stop walking away?